Do you ever feel not needed by your peers? When they are planning a trip to somewhere awesome they just don’t realize that you are there. They never bother to call you. If you are an extroverted person, then maybe you could approach them like it’s nothing, but when you are an introverted person, you will feel separated from them psychologically; like they exclude you from their inner circle indirectly. Like when they are all taking pictures but you are not invited, so you are pretending to be busy all the time. Like when you, yourself, don’t know which circle you are actually belong to and no one give a damn about that. I know how you feel, it hurts.
Some people might say that they are not intentionally exclude us from the circle. Sometimes they just forget because your presence is insignificant to them or if i may say rudely; you are not fun and you are not in their heart at all. They remember you if they have something to ask you or something that has to be done with your help. What can we do? Well, you can try to be fun but actually you will be back to square one and you feel tired of trying to fit in. True friends will never see you because you’re only a pile of fun but because you are you. Even if you are not fun but they love you, you’ll never be excluded from any circles. Okay, that will be utopia; I know.
Sometimes when I am the third person and I watch this scene like I’m watching a movie, I want to shout at them and say,”Do you guys actually see him there, I mean seriously, he’s not doing anything bad to you guys but why bother to exclude anyone?” but I won’t because it’s not my business. Well, it’s all comeback to you, what are things that makes you more humane? A bond I suppose. But if it’s all gone, then maybe we are the lost ones.
“You sometimes think you want to disappear, but all you really want is to be found.”